She never knew

"Taking her hand, I looked back to see that my friend was not who I thought she was. I saw the truth, and this acquaintance had shown me that. and In showing me, she became my best friend"







She was confused for one of the first times of her life, But little did she know that the next six months would be full of this confusion. She didnt realise it then, but she was stood at a fork in the road. She could chose one way, or the other. She chose to go down the road she saw would best fit her changing attitudes towards the world, but now she's wondering where the other road would have lead to.

Would it have lead to pain and solitude?

Would it not matter which path was chosen then, that the outcome here was inevitable?

Would she be stuck like she used to be, the friend of an outsider and nothing more?

She shakes her head. Ofcourse not
Her choice was the right one. Wasnt it?

If only I could go back and see what the other path would lead me to. Maybe that would give me an insight into whether I gave up the right thing. By chosing to leave behind everything I knew for a change to grow as a person, did I chose right?

I really did do just that though, didnt I? I gave up everything I knew, left it behind me, and ran away.

She has run away, but from what? To what?

From the person she had always thought had saved her when she most needed rescuing to someone who had just appeared and offered her hand?
From the person who had slowly destroyed her hope of being liked by others to a person who might be able to give her a better chance of being a normal teenager?

She went to the person her heart seemed to trust more, even though the one she ran from was a bubble of hope she saw in the darkness no more than two years before. That bubble popped the second she took her new friends hand and the facade melted. Her old friend, as that is what she is now, was no longer the person who could always make her laugh. She was the horrible manipulative outsider everybody else saw her for.

But back then, she was young and naive. Only fourteen.

She never knew.

She did chose the right thing. She's always reminded that when her friend drags her out to watch a film or drags her into the town centre, something that she hadnt done often before. She chose the best thing and left the past behind her, where it belongs.

Just take the leap. Your heart knows what your doing, even if you dont.