I thought you might enjoy this as much as me. I laughed so much at this. ♥

Can you feel me
When I think about you
With every breath I take
Every minute
No matter what I do
My world is an empty place
Like I've been wandering the desert
For a thousand days

Love this song. Don’t judge, just because its a Selena Gomez song. Hmph. Anyway! WOW, did I sound depressed in the last post!? Anyway. Time for another update! I know, I don’t blog a lot anymore. I used to use blogging to procrastinate from doing homework and stuff, and now I procrastinate from blogging! Bad actual times. Well, anyway, last Monday Rebecca and I went to the library for a nice revision (semi) filled day, bought some stationary, and got a subway. Well. That was all fine and dandy, but then Tuesday! Ohmydays. Tuesday night around ten o’clock, I went downstairs feeling sick. Four am Wednesday morning and I had been sick five times. And I slept on a sofa that ends at my knees. It was not a good night. I was exhausted and napping constantly until the weekend! Unfortunately the stomach bug spread to my parents. It was horrible.

So, anyway, today I saunder into Psychology, and my teacher is all “Oh, youre in then.” and then went on to say something along the lines of “Do you think you can manage to make it in until the end of the term?” … I was not amused. I sat there in a strop, not giving her eye contact.

I’m dreading my English and Psychology exams. Both on the same day! Have I mentioned this enough yet? I have six weeks until my exams, and then no more edumacation for the rest of my life. Well, not in the Ridgeway School, any way. Next Friday is my last ever day in school, too! I don’t know what I’m going to do. I’m growing up to fast. I want cookies and colouring books, not criticisms and revision guides. However, I realise you can’t pause the sands of time for anything, so you just have to go with the flow.

Well, I’m off to settle down with some lemonade, Frazzles (Hell yeah, Bacon flavour crisps!) and the TV. Have a nice day!

Year without Rain - Selena Gomez

Where do we go from here?
How do we carry on?
I can't get beyond these questions...

Clambering for the scraps in the shatter of us collapsed
that cuts me with every could-have-been
Pain on pain on play repeating
with the backup, makeshift life in waiting

Everybody says time heals everything
but what of the wretched hollow?
The endless in between
are we just going to wait it out?

So, kinda blogging as I feel like I need to write down how I feel right now. Maybe to understand it a little better? I’m not entirely sure. All I know is that right now, as well as last night, I’m feeling extremely vulnerable and insecure. I don’t know exactly why this is, but I’m pretty sure it isn’t just one thing.

I know that, next month is my last ever month of school. I’ve been at this school for the past seven years! Not exactly been good all the way through, but some days make the bad ones not matter any more. Anyway, my point it, by the beginning of July, the month in which I turn 18, I will have finished school completely, and I will be smacked full on in the face with the impending disaster of my life that is adulthood, and with it, a job.

I’ve never actually sat down and decided what I wanted to be. I’ve never aspired to anything, so does that mean I’ll just end up being a failure? Not necessarily, I know, but as I said, feeling insecure and vulnerable, and at times like these you think about these sort of things.

I’ll blog again some time soon, I have to get ready for psychology. ♥