If I could hold this moment in my hands

After tonight,
who knows where we'll be tomorrow
what if we're never here again?

After tonight
This will be a lifetime ago
so let's stay up until the sky bleeds red.

And we'll stop stop stop the world from moving
Stop stop stop the grass from turning
Stop this night from fading away

This time is ours
If I could hold this moment in my hands
I'd stop the world from moving
I'd stop the grass from turning

This time is ours
inside a frozen memory of us
And we are motionless, motionless

Gone like a dream that I have just awoken from
Fading away, just out of reach
And we are here, but I already miss you
even as you're lying next to



Oh, How revision, exams and school will be the death of me. So today, I realised I had run out of paper. Bad thing that is, because I have so much revision to do for my Psychology exam on thursday. No paper = No revision. So when Matthew offered to drive me to town, I went. I didnt just get paper though, oh no. I got 4 books.



"The short second life of Bree Tanner" (Also known as 'TSSLoBT'), "Betrayed", "Chosen", and "Untamed". The House of Night series is an exceptionally good bunch of books.



TSSLoBT. First thoughts? Looking at it from the side view like this (^^) and yes, thats Angel, One of the cats that owns me. Its length I am not happy with. Stephenie Meyer, its all well and good that you wrote another book, but c'mon. All these fans waiting and you give them a book far less than 200 pages long. My exact first thoughts were 'Im going to use the book to smack Stephenie around the head and tell her to write more'

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I was kinda caught offguard earlier today and yesterday. Now, Im not 100% sure about this as im wary and paranoid. My life hasnt been the easiest, but by far it hasnt been the hardest either, but we all have our moments, right? So anyway, I saw an old friend of mine and she seemed a little off with me. It was only breifly and she was with a friend, who I dont like and clearly she does not like me either. And then My old friend made a remark on her facebook that confused me, because I wasnt sure whether it was aimed at me. I mean, my head says theres a possiblily, but my heart says to ignore it and hope for the best. What am I meant to do? We, in the past, have discussed this subject before. Now, I cant tell you what it was exactly, but ill give an example. Say you had a favourite food and your friend hates it, but you dont really see anything wrong with it, even if you have discussed it before. You just dismiss it and then later, your friend starts to contemplate whether you should be friends because you dont like the same food. I know this is a ridiculous example, but I hope you know what im trying to say.

Now, like I said, its probally not aimed at me because obviously im not the only person in this world. I dont know the full story of whats happened to my friend for the past few weeks. It might be something to do with someone else. So why am I in doubt? Maybe shes just in a bad mood.

Friends help mold us and shape us after our family has done their part. Whatever happens, as you age, you may change on the outside and you may act differently, but inside your still the same. The same heart beats with the rhytme of the world. The same soul is still buried within you, waiting for the day you die so that they can continue their forever lasting journey to knowledge and understanding. The same lungs breathe the forever changing winds of nature. The same you in every way.

I just wish I could escape sometimes. Or start a-fresh. The words I want to hear right now? "Victoria Telling. The Night has chosen Thee. Thy death will be thy birth. Your destiny awaits you at the House of Night."

#RandomFact I dont enjoy the fact that people judge a book by its cover.