The pitter-patter of the rain on the windows and the humming of my failing charger dont help a lonely person. Nah, what am I kidding, Im not feeling lonely. Ive spent the day all cozy and in my bedroom. Some call it lazy, and heck yeah, it is lazy, but everyone needs one of these days every now and then. But, im afraid I have bad news. My laptop is only barely charging now. I cant move otherwise it stops. But its okay, Im sure I can wrap my brother into giving me his old laptop. Well, he isnt using it, and my birthday is soon, but who knows.

Ive been meaning to download some new songs to my phone for a while now, and I guess I did it today because 1) I may not be able to for a while with the whole charging perdicament and 2) I finally found my long lost headphones. I dont know how I coped without them. I found them in my pocket last week when Becca dragged me out to a school summer showcase to support a friend. Okay, I admit it was pretty good and I now have a new-found love of "A Chorus Line". I must put that on my imaginary to-do list; Watch "A Chorus Line" the movie.

Tomorrow, Im heading off to Shaw Ridge cinema and im going to watch The Twilight Saga: Eclipse. Now, I have admitted this a few times, but I watched the first 84 mins (Out of 117 mins) online. Yeah, yeah, Im so illegal and shiz, but anyway, I kinda got bored. Maybe? I dont know, all I know is I will definatly watch the whole thing in the cinema tomorrow with my twi-buddy, Zoey. We became Twi-buddies way back when last July when we were both reading the books at the same time during our exams. Then we saw New Moon together last year, so we thought what the hey! We'll watch Eclipse together too. So thats what were doing tomorrow. Oh, and wouldnt it be freaky if her last name was RedBird? Mental note: Vicky, stop obsessing over books !!

You know I wont. ;)

#RandomFact My favourite animal is the Ring-Tailed Lemur. So cute !!! I feel in love with them in like 2005 when I went to Cotswold wildlife park. They were so furry and warm looking. I wanted one, and I do admit to planning an escape with one.

When I was little, My dad and I had walked down to the pitchens once, a back road sorta place where a stream flows down the side of this big cottage and pathway. We bought two nets and pulled on some wellington boots. I climbed over the rails and jumped in the stream. Its not that deep, so no worries. I picked up a tyre, yeah a tyre, people in Wroughton liked to think they were tough back in the 90‘s, now they just are. So, under the tyre, I saw a mini-lobster. I was a kid,It was a crayfish, I had never seen one before. I ended up walking home with one wellie on, the other filled with water for the crayfish. I have no idea what happened to that crayfish. Maybe we took it back, but most likely not. Still, the matter still stands, I must have looked ridiculous walking home with one wellie on!

Last night, my Dad sat on my bed while I was reading “Hunted” so he could watch the world cup final between Holland and Spain. We we’re confused to why BBC1 had the netherlands Vs Spain and why BBC2 had the exact same game, but with Holland Vs Spain. Why did BBC2 have to be different? Then we had a discussion to which was closer to England, Spain or Holland. My bets were on spain, but that just proves that my geography sucks, because on the map we were looking at, right under where it England was written, Holland was there, bold and taunting. I’ll tell you now that I dont like football as a sport. Its the most boring thing and people get paid way too much to kick a ball back and forth, but the world cup game was really boring. Nobody scored in the whole game, so they had to use extra time. After the boring goal that won the game, I simply sat up, showed my dad a page of my book and declared that I was reading no more. I spotted a mistake. Dad said that people get paid for stuff like that, so maybe I should email the authors, but what would I write?

Dear P.C and Kristin Cast,

I was reading one of your House of Night books, “Hunted”, recently and realised an error. On page 194 Jack and Damien are talking to each other, shortly after Darius has left the room to take Heath to the surface. However, I noticed that it says that Darius speaks to Jack instead of Damien. Check it out, im not mistaken.

Darius, Stevie Rae and Heath leave Zoey, Jack, The Twins, Damien, Erik and Aphrodite on page 190-191. Shaunee and Erin, The Twins, leave to get their purses on page 193-194, after Erik tells Jack, Damien and the twins to get ready to go back to school. Then, because Jack is not going with them, he turns to Damien, his boyfriend and here comes the point where the mistake is.

“I want to go with you,” Jack said, looking close to tears.
“I want you to come, too,” Darius said. “But it’s too dangerous. You have to stay here with Erik and Stevie Rae until we know exactly what we’re up against”
“My mind understands that, but my heart says something else,” Jack said, leaning his head against Damien’s shoulder.

It should be Damien that says “I want you to come, too” instead of Darius. But, Enough ranting, I love your books !

Love from Victoria Telling.

The whole time while my Dad was watching the world cup, he kept flicking to and from the movie channel where Titanic was on. I kept telling him that he was so sappy for a man flicking from sport to titanic. It was like he was fighting with my mum over what they were going to watch on the television, but with himself. And everytime he flicked to Titanic, I kept laughing because I remembered the “lol jk” joke on facebook, and the HoN references to Leo and his floating off like a cute popsicle-ness.

“Ill never let go Jack. LOL JK, Get off my door.”

#RandomFact Ellie Goulding’s song “Guns and Horses” is one of my fave’s. Its about Ellie finding love over the internet. It can happen. E-harmony says so. 2% of marrages a year are from couples who met on E-harmony. #RandomFactNumber2

Ancient one sleeping, waiting to arise
When earths power bleeds sacred red
The mark strikes true: Queen Tsi Sgili will devise
He shall be washed from his entombing bed.

Through the hand of the dead he is free
Terrible beauty, monstrous sight
Ruled again they shall be
Women shall kneel to his dark might

Kalona's song sounds sweet
As we slaughter with cold heat

Drunk Vision Girl remembered all of that without hesitating. My memory would so not want to cooperate with me if I needed to remember something like that.

Okay, I need to stop obsessing with yet another Vampire (Well, Vampyre) book. Im reading the fifth book from the House of Night series. In total, right now anyway, there are seven books. The eighth one comes out in January. I do reccomend the series to anybody who has read twilight, because you might actually like it.

Oh my, I have a lesson to go to now. I havent packed my bag! Bah!

I came across a legend from the Cherokee people in a book I was reading the other day that I found interesting.

A long time ago there was an angel named Kalona, who had fallen from the skys down to earth into a tribe of Cherokee people. He made all the village bow down before him and his beauty.

The Cherokee people soon learned he did not belong there. He raped their women and become obsessed with bedding those he desired. He blamed the women for tempting him and made the men his slaves. The women who conceived Kalona's children bore half Ravem, half human immortals which were named the Raven Mockers.

A group of Ginghua women, who were wise women from different tribes, created a maiden made out of clay. They breathed life into her using the four elements, air, water, fire, and earth. Then the fastest Ginghua woman rubbed the maidens legs to make her fast, to run away from Kalona. They called her A-ya, which means "Me" In Cherokee, as to each Ginghua women A-ya was 'Me'. The wisest of them whispered instructions into A-ya's ear as they lead her to the lake where Kalona bathed every morning.

Kalona saw her and when he did, he knew he had to have her. She ran, and he chased after her. The Ginghua women had told A-ya to run into a cave, deep down into the earth because Kalona was a creature from the sky, and he could not escape the earth.

Kalona only had slight hesitation before following A-ya into the cave. When they were deep in the earth, A-ya stopped and threw her arms around him as she became clay again, and as the Ginghua women sealed the cave with a great boulder, trapping him there forever.

A-ya reminds me of Meg from the animated disney version of Hercules. She was made of clay, too, and I do love the classic animated disney films.



This song is one of my favourites at the moment.

"You're a Midas in reverse, you're the king of pain and hurt"

I remember learning about King Midas and his golden touch when I was in primary school. I think I might be having a greek mythology moment.

Many years ago there lived a king named Midas.

King Midas had one little daughter, whose name was Marigold.

King Midas was very, very rich. It was said that he had more gold than any other king in the world.

One room of his great castle was almost filled with yellow gold pieces.

At last the King grew so fond of his gold that he loved it better than anything else in all the world.

He even loved it better than his own little daughter, dear little rosy-cheeked Marigold. His one great wish seemed to be for more and more gold.

One day while he was in his gold room counting his money, a beautiful fairy boy stood before him.

The boy's face shone with a wonderful light, and he had wings on his cap and wings on his feet. In his hand he carried a strange-looking wand, and the wand also had wings.

"Midas, you are the richest man in the world," said the fairy. "There is no King who has so much gold as you."

"That may be," said the King. "As you see, I have this room full of gold, but I should like much more; for gold is the best and the most wonderful thing in the world."

"Are you sure?" asked the fairy.

"I am very sure," answered the King.

"If I should grant you one wish," said the fairy, "would you ask for more gold?"

"If I could have but one wish," said the King, "I would ask that everything I touch should turn to beautiful yellow gold."

"Your wish shall be granted," said the fairy. "At sunrise to-morrow morning your slightest touch will turn everything into gold. But I warn you that your gift will not make you happy."

"I will take the risk," said the King.

The next day King Midas awoke very early. He was eager to see if the fairy's promise had come true.

As soon as the sun arose he tried the gift by touching the bed lightly with his hand.


The bed turned to gold.

He touched the chair and table.

Upon the instant they were turned to solid gold.

The King was wild with joy.

He ran around the room, touching everything he could see. His magic gift turned all to shining, yellow gold.

The King soon felt hungry and went down to eat his breakfast. Now a strange thing happened. When he raised a glass of clear cold water to drink, it became solid gold.

Not a drop of water could pass his lips.

The bread turned to gold under his fingers.

The meat was hard, and yellow, and shiny.

Not a thing could he get to eat.

All was gold, gold, gold.

His little daughter came running in from the garden.

Of all living creatures she was the dearest to him.

He touched her with his lips.

At once the little girl was changed to a golden statue.


A great fear crept into the King's heart, sweeping all the joy out of his life.

In his grief he called and called upon the fairy who had given him the gift of the golden touch.

"O fairy," he begged, "take away this horrible golden gift! Take all my lands. Take all my gold. Take everything, only give me back my little daughter."

In a moment the beautiful fairy was standing before him.

"Do you still think that gold is the greatest thing in the world?" asked the fairy.

"No! no!" cried the King. "I hate the very sight of the yellow stuff."

"Are you sure that you no longer wish the golden touch?" asked the fairy.

"I have learned my lesson," said the King. "I no longer think gold the greatest thing in the world."

"Very well," said the fairy, "take this pitcher to the spring in the garden and fill it with water. Then sprinkle those things which you have touched and turned to gold."

The King took the pitcher and rushed to the spring. Running back he first sprinkled the head of his dear little girl. Instantly she became his own darling Marigold again, and gave him a kiss.

The King sprinkled the golden food, and to his great joy it turned back to real bread and real butter.

Then he and his little daughter sat down to breakfast. How good the cold water tasted! How eagerly the hungry King ate the bread and butter, the meat, and all the good food!

The King hated his golden touch so much that he sprinkled even the chairs and the tables and everything else that the fairy's gift had turned to gold.

If you havent read part 1 of the Dreams and Allusions posts, scroll down. :)

Continued from my last post, My weird and wonderful dream from last night.

Vicky POV (Woooop!)

Bahahaha, this dream is so cool. Weird, but cool. I bet this is confusing you. Maybe? Well, ill make it easier for you. My dad is apparently the leader of this big company thing and they are trying to save people by bringing them to this safe base in alaska. My brother, John, is helping. I dont really have a brother called John, but apparently in my dreams I do. Go figure. So, theres some massive underground base under the main base above ground. Its like this diagram, but not.

Without the city above it and it doesnt look like a bee hive. Its just a massive bunch of tunnels with big rooms and stuff. Big cafeteria, swimming pools, stables, sports halls, loads and loads of supply rooms and most likely thousands of bedrooms. Im guessing this place was built years and years in advance, so they must have known what the umbrella corperation were doing. Hey, if it doesnt make sense, I have my argument down, Its my dream. So anyway, Proir to yesterday I begged my dad into saving certain people, and some of them are arriving soon.

“When will they be here?” I stare up impatiently at John.
“Go bug Riley if you wanna know so badly” I stomped off to Riley’s tent and flicked his ear.
“Hey, what was that for?” He complained as he turned his chair to look up at me.
“For your attention. It’s short, like you.” I giggled when he shook his head.
“When’s the G-17 going to get here?” I asked as Riley went back to one of his many computer monitors.
“Why should I tell you? You’ll flick my ear again when you want something”
“because you love me and you know you want to tell me.” I giggled as I kissed his cheek.
“Fine” he muttered as he checked the tracker. I looked at the screen and saw that it showed the chopped close to the base so I ran out before Riley could tell me.
“You’re welcome” I heard Riley call at me when I was out the tent and running towards John. The first chopper landed and I ran straight up to Seann to hug her. She was really confused, as was everyone. She had no idea why she was here, and she had bought her closest friends and family.
“Vicky, Dad needs to speak to you.” John said. I rolled my eyes and nodded.
“Seann, Ill tell you what I can later. Room six at half six tonight.” I whispered and then went to hug Claire. Claire was taller than I had expected and we had a quick giggle before I ran off. “You wanted to talk, dad?” I said, entering the tent.
“You have to see Stark later for training. Im just reminding you.”
“Oh, okay” I said, smiling. Dad handed me an earpeice, so I put it in and turned it on.

Loads of people were talking to me and asking me to do things all day through the earpiece. I could have taken it out and thrown it in a bucket of water. Thats the problem when your dad and brother were both in such high positions of a company, people expect you to follow their footsteps. I must have ended up fixing a few computers, which werent even broken to start with, and fileing loads of boring reports. I headed into Rileys tent to give him the earpiece. Id had enough.
“Deactivate this for me, Rile’s.” I smiled at him.
“Sure” he said, taking it from me and tampering with it for a few minutes. When he was finished, he gave it back and I put it in my pocket.
“Thanks. Whens the next arrival?”
“There’s actually three choppers coming in now.”
“Three!? Riley, Why didnt you tell me sooner?” I hit him and he frowned.
“Hey, Your brother just took the clipboards before you got here. Run along Miss moodswing.”
“Im not having moodswings” I laughed as I ran outside to look for John. When I caught up with him I walked at his slow pace towards the landing pads.
“Has the zombie thing even happened yet?” I asked, looking up at him. He patted my shoulder.
“Soon.” He nodded. I ran off somewhere and got some drinks and put them in my satchel before running back to John. I watched as the choppers came in for landing one by one and then people started to get off. I giggled excited and looked away so I couldnt see anybody.

“Settle down, Please.” John said in his authority voice. “You have all been bought here because you all have one thing in common. Thanks to that similarity, you have more change of surviving the oncoming storm that will devistate this planet.” He paused to let people whisper to each other and then carried on, all the while, I had my face behind a clipboard I had taken from him. “No need to worry now, but all will be explained when the time comes.” He looked down at me. Awr damn, I thought to myself. He wanted me to continue. I lowered the clipboard trying not to grin and cleared my throat.
“Basically, This is your life until things get sorted. Under your feet, about 20 feet approximantly, is a complex network of tunnels. There you will be safe from any threats that will inevitably happen in the following month’s.” I looked up at John, giggling quietly at how weird it was saying that, and he continued with something I wasnt expecting, because he had never said anything bar the usual.
“The thing that each family has in common is her” He pointed at me. I hid behind the clipboard again. Well, until he took it from me that is. I heard a few people muttering, but since this whole thing is a dream, I waved and looked down the line.
“Tanja, Inger, Malene, Bayan, Summer, Christina. Oh and Louise! Hey!” I grinned. I took out a carton of Club Orange from my satchel and ran over to Louise. I hugged her and gave her the carton before running back to John.

“How do you know my daughter? And how did you know she likes that drink so much?” Louises mum started. Loads of other parents who were muttering things spoke up too, having a go at me for knowing their children. I stopped smiling and looked at everyone yelling at me. John tried to calm them down but I ran off. I ran into Kellan, actually. I had made friends with a lot of people and Kellan was one of them. He picked me up and took me back over. Putting me down next to John, Everyone went quiet.
“Kellan, youre a big meanie” I said. He chuckled and ruffled my hair up.
“Everything okay, John?” He asked. John nodded.
“See ya later, then.” Kellan kissed my hair and walked off. I grinned and turned back to everyone.
“Kellan’s cool” I giggled.
“Its not her fault she knows us, Mum” Louise said. “We’ve all talked to her online, and before you say anything, I know but I dont care.”
“Shes crazy, but shes cool.” Someone else said.
“Im a lot like Alice” I said giggling. Then I remembered.
“Oh yeah, Ashley !!” I said, and then covered my mouth. “Nevermind” I had to give her a key to her wardrobe. I kind of stole it before she arrived. Whoopsy’s?
“Okay, we need to get you inside now” John said just as dark clouds started to form above us. As everyone headed over to the elevator, I grabbed Louise and whispered in her ear.
“Room six at half six.” She nodded and then went on. I had to give the ear peice back to dad so I rushed to his tent before it started to pour down.

“Its almost six o’clock, Victoria.” My dad said as I handed him the deactivated earpeice. (He would be none the wiser, so it was fine)
“Yup, I know” I said.
“You have training at six until seven, you better not be late.” He raised his eyebrow at me.
“Six ‘til seven?” I said. Damn, I was meeting Seann and Louise at half past six. Great.
“Yes. Now, you better get down there, Stark doenst like it when your late.”
“He doesnt like it when Im early either” I muttered under my breathe as I grabbed an umbrella and ran outside. Getting into the elevator, I found riley rewiring the monitor on the side. As we were going down, he was wrapping red wires and blue wires around the box in which the monitor sits in. I put my hand in my pocket and took out the key.
“Riley, can you do me a favour please?”
“Another one? Fine, sure. What is it?” He said as he picked up his screwdriver.
“This key needs to go to Ashley Greene in room 68,” I said as I slid the key into his front jeans pocket. “Promise me you will give it to her”
“Promise” He nodded. When the elevator stopped, I ran out and went to my room to get changed. I picked up a bottle of water and ran down three long corridors to the gym where Stark was waiting. I ran in, looked at the clock and poked my tounge out at him. Six on the dot. Stark chuckled.
“Afternoon, Mr Stark” I joked, skipping up to him and kissing his cheek. I went and picked up the training staff and we started to fight. This is the part where I started to wake up from my dream. I was fighting some robots with swords (Yeah, I know, weird) and then I looked up at the observation balcony where Seann and Louise were watching me. I had to concentrate on beating the robots up like the bad a$$ I was in my dream because it was mentioned that they were on kill mode. Yeah, I have no idea. And this, my lovely, is where I woke up. The end.

Well, wasnt that long? Lots of text allusion in this. So, did anyone notice any of my influences in this dream? An army man called John = Dear John, not that Ive ever read the book or seen the film. Stark is from House of Night. Riley the tech guy is from National treasure, and Im in love with him.

The whole Zombie thing, Umbrella corp, safe base is alaska is from Resident Evil Extinction, the third RE film. They are the best horror films ever, and there is a new one coming out soon, so all good. The characters mentioned, if they arent from films or movies, are my friends online. Dont ask why i didnt dream about my other friends, although I did dream a part where Seann and Louise wanted to know what was going on, so at dinner in the cafeteria, they called Rebecca over and they had a nice long chat.

Longest blog posts ever? I think so. Love you xxxx

My dreams seem to be getting strange. Scientifically proven, its not the cheese, not that ive been eating cheese before I go to bed lately anyway. Last nights dream had a lot of people in, so I thought Id share it in story form, because it was really long and detailed, which is kind of unusual for my dreams as they are usually blurs and colours and people running around and whatnot. From what I understand, all of the people to be mentioned are in some massive safe base in Alaska. This is because it was in Resident Evil: Extinction. I know, I need to stop watching horror films. Im guessing that there is this secret organisastion that has built this safe base so that people can be protected and saved from the imminent danger. It was weird because In my dream at first, I was the army guy. Then I was me again. I know its strange, but I cant help what I dream about. So, without futher ado, my dream.

John Pov

“Riley, Which Clipboard?” I watched Riley type frantically onto his keyboard. He was the groups tech guy, he knew everything about computers and nerdy stuff like that. He wasnt too bad. He’s my best friend and after hours, we always get a couple of beers in and play poker or darts or whatever.
“Just a second” He muttered while spinning around on his chair doing something else.
“Riley? Another chopper just landed, I need to know what rooms people have been assigned to. Which clipboard?”
“Urr...Seven”
“Are you sure?” I said, picking up the clipboard labeled seven.
“Yup. Hey, John, do you know how to reprogramme a turret in less than a minute?” He swiveled on his chair and looked at me. I laughed.
“Are you joking? I can do 100 press-ups in three minutes, but thats about it. Now stop showing off” We both laughed as Riley swivled back to his computer screen and started doing whatever he does. I walked out of tent 3A and into the dry weather, heading for one of the many landing pads by the fence. The fence surrounded the whole base, and there were towers stationed along them every 50 feet or so where gunners and watchmen took their shifts eating sandwiches and watching the surrounding environment. There was no need for them to be there at the moment but it was better to be safe than sorry, as Dad would say. I walked up to the line of confused people and took my position in front, standing straight with my hands behind my back, still holding the clipboard. I took a look at a few of the civilians and knew who they were. I nodded at Claire Redfield, who was the one who gathered up these civilians. She nodded back and gave me her best flirty smile.
“Now is not the time for explainations. You have been bought here for a reason. You will be safe here. All questions will be answered when the time is right, please follow me to your accomadation.” I followed the regular procedure and when everyone was where they were supposed to be, I went to tent 1A to report back.

“Claire’s group has arrived and they have been dealt with, Sir”
“Good job, son” He nodded. “At ease, Soldier. Todays targets complete?”
“VIP’s to arrive shorty, Sir.”
“Okay, thats good. How’s your sister?”
“She’s somewhere, Dad.” I said. Then my dad and I shared one of those smiles. He chuckled.
“She knows who’s coming today, so keep her controlled.”
“Ill try my best, sir.” I saluted and chuckled with him. He sat back at his desk in the middle of the tent and looked up at me.
“Dismissed, Soldier.” I nodded and walked out of the tent. A few steps out, I bumped into Claire. She giggled.
“Long time, no see” She said, flicking her short blonde hair.
“Nice to see you still alive, Claire”
“Just a few grazes. The umbrella corp are getting better at aiming. Lets hope they know less that what we think they do.” We both shared a moment and then we walked in opposite directions. Claires always had a thing for me, as have a few other girls, but I dont see why. I decided to go look for my little sister. Knowing whereabouts she would be, I went into Riley’s tent again and put clipboard seven back.
“VIP clipboard, Riley?” I asked. Riley turned to me, scribbling on a piece of paper and then, attaching it to a clipboard, he threw it to me.
“I completely forgot to do it earlier, Sorry dude.” He said. I chuckled as I grabbed it.
“Its fine.” I turned and then looked back at him “Hey, what reminded you?”
“Your sister stopped by”
“Figures” I laughed and walked out, back to the chopper pads, to wait for the next arrival.

I saw here hiding behind a crate. I walked up behind her and tried my hardest not to laugh.
“Vicky, What are you doing?” She jumped
“Oh my god, John, dont do that to me” She said as she hit my arm. I messed up her hair and she pulled a face. Fixing her hair she took my hat and put it on her head. I chuckled.
“Dont avoid the question”
“Nothing, honest. I was just sitting in the shade.”
“and watching out for the next chopper?”
“Ofcourse” She grinned.
“Dont freak them out”
“I wont. Hey, can I stand next to you and look all official and cool?” She giggled.
“Well, your wearing the hat and the trousers. Im sure you’ll look the part.”
“Yay!” she bounced up and down. I handed her the clipboard.
“You can hold this.” She looked down at it.
“This is the better half of the VIP’s isnt it?” she grinned up at me. I shrugged.
“I have no idea, Is it?”
“Ashley Greene, Kellan Lutz, Andrea Kelley, Caitie Uhlmann, Huge Grant, Russell Brand, and all their close friends and family, as well as loads of others to come tomorrow. Who picked these people? They are really random”
“Its your dream, you numpty” I laughed.
“True” she laughed

When the day was over, I went underground via the elevator. I walked through the tunnels and walked to my room. I had a quick shower before rooting through my fridge for some beer. Grabbing it, I went back up to the surface and went over to Riley’s tent. The sun was begining to set in the distance and Vicky was where she usually was this time of day, laying on a blanket near the fence and watching the sun go down. I walked into the tent and threw a beer at Riley.
“So, choice tonight?” I asked.
“Poker is boring me now, how about darts?”
“Just dont drink too much like last time, I dont think Vicky will be happy if she has to sew your tent up again.” I laughed. After a few drinks and a few rounds of darts, me winning like usual, we both decided to head back for the night.
“Its your turn to take her back, Riley” I said, nudging him.
“She’s your sister!”
“Its your turn”
“Fine” He sighed and ran off to get her. I waited by the Elevator for him to come back and it didnt take long for him to come back with Vicky sleeping in his arms. We went down into the tunnels and followed the usual route to our rooms. We stopped at room six to drop Vicky off and then splitting up, Riley and I went back to our rooms. I got into bed and set my alarm for six am before sliding into the cold bed and falling asleep.

Broken people get recycled and I hope that I will. Sometimes we're thrown off our pathways. What I thought was my way home wasn't the place I know. No, I'm not afraid of changing. Certain? Nothing's certain. What we own becomes our prison. My possessions will be gone back to where they came from.

Blame?
No one is to blame.
As natural as the rain that falls,
here comes the flood again.

See the rock that you hold onto?
Is it gonna save you when the earth begins to crumble?
Why'd you feel you have to hold on?
Imagine if you let go

Flush away the weight that pulls you down.
Light the ways that free from the dust.

Don't trust your eyes, it's easy to believe them.
Know in your heart that you can leave your prison.

Don't trust your mind, its not always listening.
Turn on the lights and feel the ancient rhythm.

Blame?
No one is to blame.
As natural as the rain that falls,
here comes the flood again.

Distance. It can be good and bad. Sometimes, distance fixes things that were only slighty broken, and other times, distance can make things worse. Having the whole week away from my parents seemed to help things. For now. Lets hope things will be okay. I was at Becca's and we had a pretty good week, even if we were both slightly accident prone. On the wednesday, I persuaded Becca to have a laugh and go onto ChatRoulette. We did. We saw plenty of crotch's (Unfortunatly not JActions, -sigh-) and we both fell in love with two different guys before we spoke to Chris Brown. Dont believe us? The first picture is Chris Brown and the second is the guy I fell in love with. Yes, I know, Im weird, but tell me you dont look at it and sigh.





Okay, I admit that part of the reason I like him is because he looks slightly like Robert Pattinson. Noh? Well, I thought so. But he was a genuinely nice guy and he was funny, too. Its a real shame I dont know his name and that he lives in Philidelpia or however its spelt. And he works for a package company where he delivers parcels and stuff. Im not a stalker, honest! Ill never see him again :( Oh, and did I mention Chris Brown asked me and Becca to get our boobs out. Yeah ! He's a slimeball, so we said goodbye and pressed the next button. We're so bad a$$ like that.

There are nine million bicycles in Beijing
That's a fact,
It's a thing we can't deny
Like the fact that I will love you till I die.

We are twelve billion light years from the edge,
That's a guess,
No-one can ever say it's true
But I know that I will always be with you.

I'm warmed by the fire of your love everyday
So don't call me a liar,
Just believe everything that I say

There are six billion people in the world
More or less
and it makes me feel quite small
But you're the one I love the most of all