Do you ever get the whole can't be bothered-y feeling when you know your just about to finish something? Like, your reading the last book in your favourite series, but you just cant be bothered to read the last chapter properly, or when your writing your last essay for something, and you know you only have to cover a few more sub-headings but you just cant make yourself sit there and type it all out. Well, thats whats happening right now. I have my It Btec essay to do, and its due wednesday. Have I finished it? No. Do I want to finish it? Hell, yeah! But can I force myself to? Hell, Hell no.

Its just so boring. Its about crappy management information systems. Because our teachers genrally buggered us all up by not understanding how to run the course, we havent got time to faf about (is that how you spell faf? Jeesh, hard word much?) learning whatnot before writing about it. Oh no, we basically read a book, and writing it in essay form in our own words. Kids, dont take a new course, let some other idiots test the waters before you don your swimming cossies.

So, my mum's fine now. She doesnt have cancer, it was just a weird infection caused by the inhalor she was using to help quit smoking. Great. As if she need more excuses to not stop. Seriously, Im not going to even start. Ya know, about two years ago, all the way back to when I was in year 10, I ran away for a few hours in the dark. Reason? My mum wouldnt let me on the laptop. I know it sounds stupid, and hell yeahs it is, but Im a teenage girl, and I was 15 back then, obviously, and almost as hormonal as I am now. Im a human teenage girl, with hormones. Whatchya gunna do?

So anyway, the whole laptop aspect has always been a big issue since my mum bought one. for herself. That was my old laptop, back when it was hers, and when it actually worked. She bought it, but she didnt use it often, that is until my sister introduced her to facebook and free online computer games. Oh, the non-existant joy. Eventually, the laptop gave up. It was constantly overheating and turning itself off and whatnot. So, my mum bought a new laptop. Oh, the old one still worked, and she gave it to my sister to get my cousin, Martin, to fix it because he's all computer genious-y. A few months after mum got her new laptop, we finally got the old one back. It worked perfectly. Except the whole overheating problem melted the charger, so my mum went out and bought and new charger and hey! presto chango! (Lol, I used that the other day and thought it was pretty funny) I got a laptop!

Then, the new charger blew up. That was a month ago, maybe? So I used an old adapter, which worked fine until the laptop plastic disfigured around the charging hole. And thats why I have no laptop. Now, Im forced to share with my mum. Oh, and how fun that is! She places her metaphorically crowned cup of tea on the dining room table as if its a signal for me to give the laptop back. and then if that fails, she hovers. I swear she lives to agitate me. Excuse me, I may have gone insane, but her breathing annoys me. Yeah, I blame the hormones.

I must have gone insane though, if its not hormones. Last night, I just laid on my matress (Because I dont have a bed, lol) and my mums voice was all I heard in my head. Yeah, I must be mental. It was so annoying. It actually made me get really agitated, too. and then I dreamt about stabbing her. and that was too far, too too far. I woke up and slapped myself (Mentally ofcourse, not physically, I think im insane enough)

Its just like she lives to annoy me sometimes. I mean, I love her to bits when shes not all annoyingly depressed and complaining, but Im constantly on edge around her, waiting for her to say something. Its like she knows it too, that she goes out of her way just to make my life a living hell.

See, I know that I need a job, but my mum wont shut up about it. She always argues back too. I tell her I need to make a CV, but she says I dont need one, when I really do. She's all "You dont need a CV for a part-time Job" She hasnt worked for over ten years, as if she's knows! and then I tell her that its kinda hard to get a job in Swindon because of the whole recession thing. There just arent many jobs, and the jobs availiable are given to people who are older, more experienced and dont still attend school. She really believes that its just as easy to get a job now as it was when she was my age. Hello, Mum, that was in the 70's !! Get an actual clue.

Okay, so I guess I did start. =/

Okay, I think its safe to say that Ive just had a mother rant of all mother rants. I could go on, but Im not going to. Im going to go read that "How not to murder your mother" book. Okay, Im not really, Im going to make me some grub, because its 12;35, my mums still in bed and Id much rather be on Twitter and check emails. Anyway's, I just started reading the next House of Night book "Burned"

Now, Im really hungry, so, g'day.

oxoxoxoxoxoxo Hugs and sloppy kisses.


#RandomFact I was sat in the car, admiring my legs. I said something like "Becca wants my legs" and then my mum turns around and says "Youve got my legs" and then turns around. Somehow, I highly doubt that, mother. (If you knew my mum, you'd probally laugh at this.)

A life of difficult choices.

Born in the 1640's.

He followed his fathers footsteps and ended up losing everything.

Hiding from the outside world as his own world changed, he turned from a human to a bloodthirsty monster.

With the gift of compassion, he learned to live with the scent of temptation.

He travelled far from home to learn the things he knows now.

He saved many lives, but then came the time to save from certain death.

Doing as Elisabeth Masen had asked him to, he saved her son from dieing from Spanish Influenza.

He taught Elisabeth's son his way of life, only drinking the blood of an animal.

Wisconsin, 1921 came and with it, hope and love.

She had attempted to end her life after her child passed away, but he felt for her and changed her, too.

It didnt take long for them to fall in love, and marry.

Then slowly, his coven changed to a family.

With his family, he felt whole again.

Carlisle.

"Taking her hand, I looked back to see that my friend was not who I thought she was. I saw the truth, and this acquaintance had shown me that. and In showing me, she became my best friend"







She was confused for one of the first times of her life, But little did she know that the next six months would be full of this confusion. She didnt realise it then, but she was stood at a fork in the road. She could chose one way, or the other. She chose to go down the road she saw would best fit her changing attitudes towards the world, but now she's wondering where the other road would have lead to.

Would it have lead to pain and solitude?

Would it not matter which path was chosen then, that the outcome here was inevitable?

Would she be stuck like she used to be, the friend of an outsider and nothing more?

She shakes her head. Ofcourse not
Her choice was the right one. Wasnt it?

If only I could go back and see what the other path would lead me to. Maybe that would give me an insight into whether I gave up the right thing. By chosing to leave behind everything I knew for a change to grow as a person, did I chose right?

I really did do just that though, didnt I? I gave up everything I knew, left it behind me, and ran away.

She has run away, but from what? To what?

From the person she had always thought had saved her when she most needed rescuing to someone who had just appeared and offered her hand?
From the person who had slowly destroyed her hope of being liked by others to a person who might be able to give her a better chance of being a normal teenager?

She went to the person her heart seemed to trust more, even though the one she ran from was a bubble of hope she saw in the darkness no more than two years before. That bubble popped the second she took her new friends hand and the facade melted. Her old friend, as that is what she is now, was no longer the person who could always make her laugh. She was the horrible manipulative outsider everybody else saw her for.

But back then, she was young and naive. Only fourteen.

She never knew.

She did chose the right thing. She's always reminded that when her friend drags her out to watch a film or drags her into the town centre, something that she hadnt done often before. She chose the best thing and left the past behind her, where it belongs.

Just take the leap. Your heart knows what your doing, even if you dont.

The charger gave up this morning. Joy. Im blogging via my mothers laptop. It helps if I get on it before she wakes up, which is what I did. Im actually in panic mode right now. Well, the subtle kind of panic mode. I've seemed to have misplaced my keys, and with them my USB stick with all of my IT Btec work on. Problem is, I have one more assignment to do, due for wednesday, and all of it is on that USB stick.

So, Im just concentrating on tonight with Zoey and Eclipse. Although, in the back of my mind, Im worrying that I wont find the keys until next month. When I lost my headphones, I couldnt find them for months! and I need my USB more than the headphones. I always misplace things at the worst of times. I just hope its at school or something. And If it is, I hope my teacher, Mr Thomas, has it safe in his desk or something. I have screenshots of MSN convo's with Louise and Seann on that thing, among other pictures and blog templates and lots of work.

#RandomFact I fell off a swing a few weeks back, but it was the best thing ever. I had one hand on the phone i was passed and the other on the chain and I slipped to land on my feet. I felt like a ninja, just before the pain in my hand appeared. I now have this weird blood mark under one of my nails.

The pitter-patter of the rain on the windows and the humming of my failing charger dont help a lonely person. Nah, what am I kidding, Im not feeling lonely. Ive spent the day all cozy and in my bedroom. Some call it lazy, and heck yeah, it is lazy, but everyone needs one of these days every now and then. But, im afraid I have bad news. My laptop is only barely charging now. I cant move otherwise it stops. But its okay, Im sure I can wrap my brother into giving me his old laptop. Well, he isnt using it, and my birthday is soon, but who knows.

Ive been meaning to download some new songs to my phone for a while now, and I guess I did it today because 1) I may not be able to for a while with the whole charging perdicament and 2) I finally found my long lost headphones. I dont know how I coped without them. I found them in my pocket last week when Becca dragged me out to a school summer showcase to support a friend. Okay, I admit it was pretty good and I now have a new-found love of "A Chorus Line". I must put that on my imaginary to-do list; Watch "A Chorus Line" the movie.

Tomorrow, Im heading off to Shaw Ridge cinema and im going to watch The Twilight Saga: Eclipse. Now, I have admitted this a few times, but I watched the first 84 mins (Out of 117 mins) online. Yeah, yeah, Im so illegal and shiz, but anyway, I kinda got bored. Maybe? I dont know, all I know is I will definatly watch the whole thing in the cinema tomorrow with my twi-buddy, Zoey. We became Twi-buddies way back when last July when we were both reading the books at the same time during our exams. Then we saw New Moon together last year, so we thought what the hey! We'll watch Eclipse together too. So thats what were doing tomorrow. Oh, and wouldnt it be freaky if her last name was RedBird? Mental note: Vicky, stop obsessing over books !!

You know I wont. ;)

#RandomFact My favourite animal is the Ring-Tailed Lemur. So cute !!! I feel in love with them in like 2005 when I went to Cotswold wildlife park. They were so furry and warm looking. I wanted one, and I do admit to planning an escape with one.

When I was little, My dad and I had walked down to the pitchens once, a back road sorta place where a stream flows down the side of this big cottage and pathway. We bought two nets and pulled on some wellington boots. I climbed over the rails and jumped in the stream. Its not that deep, so no worries. I picked up a tyre, yeah a tyre, people in Wroughton liked to think they were tough back in the 90‘s, now they just are. So, under the tyre, I saw a mini-lobster. I was a kid,It was a crayfish, I had never seen one before. I ended up walking home with one wellie on, the other filled with water for the crayfish. I have no idea what happened to that crayfish. Maybe we took it back, but most likely not. Still, the matter still stands, I must have looked ridiculous walking home with one wellie on!

Last night, my Dad sat on my bed while I was reading “Hunted” so he could watch the world cup final between Holland and Spain. We we’re confused to why BBC1 had the netherlands Vs Spain and why BBC2 had the exact same game, but with Holland Vs Spain. Why did BBC2 have to be different? Then we had a discussion to which was closer to England, Spain or Holland. My bets were on spain, but that just proves that my geography sucks, because on the map we were looking at, right under where it England was written, Holland was there, bold and taunting. I’ll tell you now that I dont like football as a sport. Its the most boring thing and people get paid way too much to kick a ball back and forth, but the world cup game was really boring. Nobody scored in the whole game, so they had to use extra time. After the boring goal that won the game, I simply sat up, showed my dad a page of my book and declared that I was reading no more. I spotted a mistake. Dad said that people get paid for stuff like that, so maybe I should email the authors, but what would I write?

Dear P.C and Kristin Cast,

I was reading one of your House of Night books, “Hunted”, recently and realised an error. On page 194 Jack and Damien are talking to each other, shortly after Darius has left the room to take Heath to the surface. However, I noticed that it says that Darius speaks to Jack instead of Damien. Check it out, im not mistaken.

Darius, Stevie Rae and Heath leave Zoey, Jack, The Twins, Damien, Erik and Aphrodite on page 190-191. Shaunee and Erin, The Twins, leave to get their purses on page 193-194, after Erik tells Jack, Damien and the twins to get ready to go back to school. Then, because Jack is not going with them, he turns to Damien, his boyfriend and here comes the point where the mistake is.

“I want to go with you,” Jack said, looking close to tears.
“I want you to come, too,” Darius said. “But it’s too dangerous. You have to stay here with Erik and Stevie Rae until we know exactly what we’re up against”
“My mind understands that, but my heart says something else,” Jack said, leaning his head against Damien’s shoulder.

It should be Damien that says “I want you to come, too” instead of Darius. But, Enough ranting, I love your books !

Love from Victoria Telling.

The whole time while my Dad was watching the world cup, he kept flicking to and from the movie channel where Titanic was on. I kept telling him that he was so sappy for a man flicking from sport to titanic. It was like he was fighting with my mum over what they were going to watch on the television, but with himself. And everytime he flicked to Titanic, I kept laughing because I remembered the “lol jk” joke on facebook, and the HoN references to Leo and his floating off like a cute popsicle-ness.

“Ill never let go Jack. LOL JK, Get off my door.”

#RandomFact Ellie Goulding’s song “Guns and Horses” is one of my fave’s. Its about Ellie finding love over the internet. It can happen. E-harmony says so. 2% of marrages a year are from couples who met on E-harmony. #RandomFactNumber2

Ancient one sleeping, waiting to arise
When earths power bleeds sacred red
The mark strikes true: Queen Tsi Sgili will devise
He shall be washed from his entombing bed.

Through the hand of the dead he is free
Terrible beauty, monstrous sight
Ruled again they shall be
Women shall kneel to his dark might

Kalona's song sounds sweet
As we slaughter with cold heat

Drunk Vision Girl remembered all of that without hesitating. My memory would so not want to cooperate with me if I needed to remember something like that.

Okay, I need to stop obsessing with yet another Vampire (Well, Vampyre) book. Im reading the fifth book from the House of Night series. In total, right now anyway, there are seven books. The eighth one comes out in January. I do reccomend the series to anybody who has read twilight, because you might actually like it.

Oh my, I have a lesson to go to now. I havent packed my bag! Bah!