The Rain goes on.

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

I don’t know what to write. I just feel empty. Alone. I slowly feel myself falling to pieces, and I can see it happening. What’s the point? I’m just walking in a straight line, passing the same things all the time. The same thing, over and frigging over again. I’m fed up, in all senses. I miss people more than I should, and the only thing I want, I can’t have. A hug. That’s all I want. A simple cuddle, hug, squidge, whatever you want to call it.

I watched the first two episodes of Vampire Diaries last night. Team Stefan, actually, because Damon seems a bit of a knob. “Thinking of you” – Katy Perry played in one scene and I turned the television off and went to bed. I just feel hopeless now. Like, there is someone out there looking for me, but they stopped for a chat with some other girl and forgot about me. What can I do? I’m just stuck in Wroughton, living with my over-worked Dad, my stressed depressed mother and my cousin who doesn’t get recognised for the deserving person he is.

Right now I feel like crawling upstairs to my room, lying on my mattress and just staying curled up for hours upon hours doing nothing but listening to the sound of my own breathing. There’s just no point in doing anything else. I think I’ve done what I’ve needed to do, whatever that was.

At least I blogged though, right?

Reach out and touch, whisper my name. I will deliver, again and again. Straight from the heart, honest and true, I promise you this, I will be there for you.